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'In my darkest hour silence spoke louder than words I am lost in a floating dreamscape I see my face behing a mask with knowing steps I am lured closer reflection strips my guise In the heart of darkness I see a light I hear my voice and I am found' - The mask Venezia

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

malay

my malay is down the drain.... its already there in the first place but i think its in the dungeon now.... let me blog in malay and see how bad it is..

hari ini ialah jethro's harijadi. dia adalah dua puluh tiga tahun. :) saya tidak beli hadiah kepada dia kerana saya tak tahu beli apa untul dia. tapi hari selasa, saya dan jethro pergi carousel dan dia beli kamera untul hairjadi dia. orang yang kerja dengan dia di australian reflection bagi dia voucher. jethro beli kamera dengan voucher, saya beli memory card untuk harijadi dia. :) hari ini saya pergi ke rumah dia untuk makan. kami makan ikan dan nasi. ada banyak orang. saya cakap dengan kawan dia, mereka sangat baik(dunno wats friendly). :) selepas makan, saya dan jethro pergi tengok wayang, kahwin kaput. saya rindu pergi jalan jalan dengan jethro.

how's my malay?

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

HapPy BirThDay Ah Bu bUuu


A hapPy Birthday TO U!
A HappY biRthDay 2 U
May U FOllOw JeSuS Christ EveryDay of The YEar
A hapPy BirThdAy 2 U
May it Be The BesT u'Ve eVer Hadd..

HapPy BirthDay, iTs JethrO's BirthDay
HapPy HapPy BiRtHDAy to U!!
HapPy BirthDay, its JeThrO's BirthDay
HapPy HapPy BirtHdAy to U! Posted by Picasa

May u have a memorable birthday with ur new friends and may u be enriched with the fruits of the Spirit. MuUAaKkkSsSss!!

Sunday, August 28, 2005


which part i like the best of initial D other than the racing part is the pak toring bit, the first time holding hands... brings back sweet memories.... i remember the first time me and jet held hands..was like 2 months or something like that after we pak tor. my heart was pumping a million beat a second. i was like floating on cloud 9.He's so sweet... asked me whether can hold my hands.. not once but a few times coz after we let go he would ask again till i told him dun have to ask to hold hands everytime.. such a gentleman, this is call respect. :) i miss those times when our relationship just started.... no farts, no burps, being gentle, kind, treating me like princess, ignoring everyone's comments but not mine, starring at each other's eyes, everyday talking on the phone till early morning, first kiss my heart just skipped a beat, holding hands (before every month the skin on his hands will peel and there will be new skin so his hands not that soft and not that nice to hold but he would always put lotion to make his hands soft for me to hold), cook for me, baby talk, buy flowers, buy a big forever friends teddy bear with a flowers carrying them all the way to uni embarrassing himself, buy presents for me that i didn't choose (his taste is good), saying sweet and lovely things to me and about me to his friends....etc.. its not like there's none of these now.. but when it just started its extra extra extra special, not for farts and burps though (that's often by me).. :p. now that me and jet don't see much or talk much to each other.... it makes the heart grow fonder.... i really miss him lots and i miss those times we went out together and with friends too. thinking back bout the past... i want it back....
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initial D

its 2am and i'm not sleepy.. y??? must be all the sweets... me and chi yenn broke out diet today coz of the dessert fair.. so we have to lengthen 3 more days of our 2 months diet plan.... 1 week passed and my bro said i've lost weight yeah.. :) but i rather have comments like nicer looking skin.. but losing weight is also nice but wanna lose more weight at certain areas... anyway... just saw initial D.... sooo nice.. i like it.... jay chou soo cute expecially with the side fringe...... so cute... side parting is sooooo adorable. wish i can do that with my hair.. oh.... i like his driving.. i wanna try it sometime but i've got an auto car... will it work? maybe i should try on my bro's car... at night when there's less cars. maybe in the parking lot. :)

wish list

my bday coming up (10th sept) and someone in particular asked me to blog a wish list so that that someone can choose from the list what to get for my bday.

wish list (some ideas)
1. A REAL dog.... puppy... i like small dog that can't grow big.. and less furr... like a chihuahua.... n adorable and beautiful one.. i dun like ugly.

2. jewellery from city gem in carillion city. :)

3. a PIGGY quilt cover with PIGGY pillow case and pink bed sheet, not light pink or bright pink... medium pink. not real looking piggy ugly prints... i like cartoon cute one. :)

4. hand made gifts

5. nice sunnies... not from sportsgal but those specialise shops. :)

6. PIGGY soft teddy bear.... something like patrick... soft and cuddly... not small and not big. material can be like patrick or the really really soft one. NOT decoration ones.. huggable ones... (maybe this option by Jet... he's my piggy.. )

7. anything from the heart.... wateva u like. i'm a simple and NOT that a demanding person... :p

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

losing weight

guess wat? today i weighed myself and i lost 2 and a half kg. :) i used to be 46gk back in kl before i came to perth... than i gain lots of weight.... and it didn't go down throughout my stay in perth and today i weighted myself.. i've lost 2 and a half kg. dunno whether its from the diet or not... i think it must be... u see.. i didn't cheat during the diet. :) i stuck to the rules and regulations. :)

today i finished an assignment and had a test.. so went lunch with sean and treated myself and went shopping.. YEAH!! i haven't shopped for a month!!! i love shopping.... shopping everyday can be a bore coz u see the same clothes over and over again.. but shopping after 2 weeks so soo fun but painful for the wallet... so i bought lots of stuff today... bought a top, and a vintage jacket.. so nice.. i love it.. and jeans... i bought a size 6 jean. it was too big or too small just fitt but it was a more to the tight side however jeans can stretch. i just hope after the diet i won't gain weight. :) i wanted to get another top but sharo talked some sense into me.. (bumped into her in the city). maybe i'll ask my mom.. hehehe....

Sunday, August 21, 2005

Liver Detox diet

Inside the liver cells there are sophisticated mechanisms that have evolved over millions of years to break down toxic substances. Every drug, artificial chemical, pesticide and hormone, is broken down (metabolized) by enzyme pathways inside the liver cells. Many of the toxic chemicals that enter the body are fat-soluble, which means they dissolve only in fatty or oily solutions and not in water. This makes them difficult for the body to excrete. Fat soluble chemicals have a high affinity for fat tissues and cell membranes, which are made of fatty substances. In these fatty parts of the body, toxins may be stored for years, being released during times of exercise, stress or fasting. During the release of these toxins, symptoms such as headaches, poor memory, stomach pain, nausea, fatigue, dizziness and palpitations may occur.
The body's primary defense against metabolic poisoning is carried out by the liver. The liver has two mechanisms designed to convert fat-soluble chemicals into water soluble chemicals so that they may then be easily excreted from the body via watery fluids such as bile and urine.
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been 2 days me and chi yenn started on our liver detox diet... y we're doing this? coz we wanna look healthy and be healthy. :) what is it doing to me at the moment? killing me softly.. we started on the diet on sat and on sat me and family went to ipoh garden for lunch.. guess wat i ate? MIXED VEGETABLE ONLY without rice.. what my parents ate? ipoh hor fun, fried noodles and fried chicken!! i was dying.. smellling and seeing all those delicious food.. but i have self control... so i just imagined my mixed veg was char kuey teow.. yum.... after that went to garden city and my stomach was like eating itself up... it was growling... but felt literally like eating itself up so i bought a fruit bun... felt much better. 2nd day of diet... i'm still surviving.... wonder how long i can take it.... its suppose to be a 2 months plans but i dunno whether i can take 2 months. well... can say i'm applying what i taught this friday at powerhouse, short-term cost but long term benefit in this diet. :) soo.... if u see me grumpy or not in the mood to talk... DUN talk to me....coz i'm HUNGRY... for the time being coz need to get use to this routine. :)

went to watch the russian national ballet,nutcracker with chi yenn, mom and brendan.... was nice.... the gals dancing so gracefully and the guys with their cute, shaped butts. :) eventhough it was nice i feel asleep some parts coz i was sooo tired. mom also feel asleep some parts.... must be the food.. after lunch, the food makes ppl sleepy.. dunno for u but that happens to me. had a good time ... next show will be at night and a drama with singing or talkign coz interpreting dance isn't my line. didn't really know the story through the dance.  Posted by Picasa

QUIDAM


Quidam: a nameless passer-by, a solitary figure lingering on a street corner, a person rushing past. It could be anyone, anybody. Someone coming, going, living in our anonymous society. A member of the crowd, one of the silent majority. The one who cries out, sings and dreams within us all. This is the "quidam" that Cirque du Soleil is celebrating.

A young girl fumes; she has already seen everything there is to see, and her world has lost all meaning. Her anger shatters her little world, and she finds herself in the universe of Quidam. She is joined by a joyful companion as well as another character, more mysterious, who will attempt to seduce her with the marvelous, the unsettling, and the terrifying.
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I had a great time watching this.... went with paul, chi yenn and mom. i liked it, music was awesome.... it was a powerful experience, showcasing the passion and excellence of world class performers who represent the very best in their fields.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

josh williams


he has the sweetest most adorable smile... I LOVE his SMILE! Posted by Picasa

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

anger management

I feel pretty,

Oh so pretty,

I feel pretty and witty and gay,

And I pitty,Any girl who isnt me today,

Lalalalalalalala

I feel charming,

Oh so charming,

It's alarming how charming i feel,

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so far throughout my parents stay... i've been a good gal... no scolding... no mummy crying ( i dun always make my mom cry... i'm an angel but sometimes i'm very bad to her that sometimes make her dissappointed in me and i'm also dissappointed at myself)... no dad angry at me... been a good gal... :) patience is a virtue.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

i will survive

Its been 9 days since i've seen Jethro and few days since we've really talked... today we talked but it was asking me to do something... so wasn't a talk... i miss him... i'll be seeing him this saturday.. yeah... he was saying this sat there's a dance party at ywam so he invited me to be his date coz he doesn't want to dance with anyone except me... so sweet... i'm a simple gal and am very easy to please. :) can't wait to see jethro...

update on jethro.... he's really enjoying himself in ywam.... on fire for God.... hearing God's voice and really believing and trusting him. He's not working n all his money was for his PR application, so he's trusting in God to provide. n NO i'm not his provider, n no i'm not a selfish gf. God has been his provider since he quit working. Praise the Lord. You want to know more bout Jethro and his faith in God providing for his finances, will ask him to share with u some day. He's still praying for finances to go to outreach.... there's 3 groups of outreach destination, 1. cairo and aust, 2. nepal and aust, 3. nepal and thailand. he feels God is calling him to Nepal and thailand. it will be a great experience for him and i'm so happy to hear of his fire and passion for Christ. however sometimes its too much for me but i remember that time i was like him . well.. its not bout me... its bout Jesus n i'm estatic to hear of Jethro abounding love for God.

Woke up early to send my dad to uncle hoe peng's house to go fishing and after that went to class at TABOR. don't u just find it hard to stay awake for morning lectures after always sleeping till 10-12pm during the holidays. So i was finding it soooo hard keeping my eyes opened during the first half of lecture but after the coffee... soo wide awake. After lect i went to Mc Ds for lunch.. guess wat i ate?? Garden salad. y? Coz me and chi yenn are planning to do this liver cleaning diet end of this month, i mean week... so i'm trying to get ready for that but its sooo hard. while eating the salad i felt like vomiting... its as bad as eating intestine, i dunno which is worst. dun get me wrong, i do eat veg.. but veg diet.. i dunno bout that... so yes i ate the salad but there's an extra thing thing i didn't mention... i couldn't resist but had a small order of fries. i dunno whether i can 100% commit to this diet... i can't life without food, i live to eat... after lunch, sat there doing my work and at 1.30pm met up with a friend (X) for movie... herbie.... her bf fetched her to the movies and fetched her back.. so sweet huh her bf. the movie was great.. i liked it.... some sad parts, maybe had a tear somewhere. :) so my birthday wish.... can get me a herbie. :) one with attitude, alive and winks.. hehehe. :) Posted by Picasa

Thursday, August 04, 2005


cheryl and chi yenn expressing their love to each other Posted by Picasa

sandboarding Posted by Picasa

incomplete

its been 4 days i've haven't seen jethro and 2 days i haven't talked to him.... sooo lonely... well... work, research and ppl calling me out keeps me busy but when i'm all alone at home my heart is calling out for jethro... as some might know, me and jethro are 'taking a break' thus spending less time with each other and more time with God coz we wanna base our relationship with God as the centre of it all. We're also taking this time to seek Christ and find out our purpose in HIM. i feel incomplete without Jet but i know it is this time that God is grooming us.

So when i'm not alone what do i do to keep myself busy?

Saturday i went sandboarding with some of the youth which was really fun... i wanna go sandboarding and skiing next time. speaking of holidays.... i watched the great outdoors on monday and they're giving away 7 free holidays for 2, so i called a few destinations and hopefully i can win. will its 1 in a million. but just doing for fun and trying new things out. :) so... saturday... went sandboarding and at night celebrated chi yenn and cheryl's bday. Had karaoke and cake and chi yenn and carmen stayed over at my place which was funnn :) i love sleep overs. i've had a deprived child hood. :) no sleep overs unless they sleep over at my place and if i wanna sleep over their place, my parents have to know my friend's parents very very very well.

sunday was church and... wat happened? getting old so memory also degrading. oh yeah.... organized a dinner for chi yenn's bday at my house. :) hope they enjoyed the food... i didn't cook, more like they cooked coz it was korean bbq on the table with veit thingo wraps.

monday, tues, wed and thurs... tabor and uni class.... researching for my research on memory. thank God that i've got good group members.

oh .. mom and dad is coming to perth tomorrow... so no cooking, cleaning and laundry for a month... YIPEE!!!

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Lonely

Lonely
I'm Mr Lonely (more like Miss Lonely,
I have nobody (there is somebody but he's not beside me),
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely (Sooo Lonely),
I'm Mr. Lonely (Miss Lonely)
I have nobody (he's not beside me),
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely,